tfw one step away from istidraj state, but it is war with your doa ibu. so instead of enjoying all kenimatan duniawi, you are instead given pain so that you hit rock bottom to question all of ur unethical behaviour 2024-02-23 I hate clerk work. I hate BAU user request typical works. I hate work for others. I hate work with an incompetent boss. I hate work with someone that is self-complacent....
When you’re a smartest person in your room, you realize you’ll hate yourself because it means you’re in the wrong room. You see news and hear speaks from other people that most of their smartest friend end up doing nothing compare to their most bastard friend. I saw reddit questions: What stopped you from killing yourself? And here is my answer. I hate smart gifted kids as I hate older who see their smart gifted friends fail in life....
i hate gay people. no matter how i try to understand them, through watching movies, i just can’t empathy with them. i never relate, i can’t understand how they process to have feeling for each other. in sex scenes, i still find them disgusting. i don’t know maybe im just bias towards this because lightning stroke in my room at 1 AM right now. maybe im just afraid of that lightning that makes me hate gay people....
Later, when you greet someone who has forgotten you, don’t make her remember you. You can pretend to be her fan while saying “take care” as you leave. Perhaps there is suppressed trauma related to you. Maybe remembering you will cause her to stop functioning and lose her big idea regarding a new theory or contribution to civilization. Perhaps you’re not that important to her. Perhaps you are a disgrace/stain in her memory....
you need to join cult, trying multiple cult, until you get cult with greatest sense of belonging try to be diversed then you realize the preach, we have to unite is a futile doctrine. ‘i already content with this group’ the group has various numbers, it variance is big. even there’s someone who content with only 1 number in group, even a half, even a quarter, even empty or void....
Field Influences Philosophy, History, Psychology, Social Sciences - The Arrivals (2008) by Achernahr, Noreagaa ~ around SMP or SMA - History of god ~ SMA - The Secret History of the World ~ SMA - Al Fatih by Felix Xiauw ~ SMA - Nietzsche ~ SMA to current - Cak Nun things ~ SMA - Hatta ~ SMA - Pram Toer ~ SMA - Chomsky ~ SMA - School of life youtube channel ~ covid era - Ted Talks youtube channel (various themes) ~ covid era - Jordan Peterson things, Gabor Mate, Hubermand’s Lab ~ covid era - Man’s Search for Meaning ~ covid era - Ngaji filsafat ~ covid era to current - Zizek ~ kaskus SMP to 2022 - Taleb & Mandelbrot ~ 2023 Business, Economy & Finance - Rich Dad Poor Dad ~ SMP/SMA - Peter Thiel, Zero to One ~ Kuliah - Michael Lewis Big short ~ Kuliah - AI for trading Udacity ~ covid era - Microeconomy by Khan Academy ~ 2022 - Macroeconomy by Khan Academy ~ 2022 - Finance & Capital Market by Khan Academy ~ 2022 to current - Munger & Buffett ~ Kuliah Islam - Abu Takeru ~ SMA - Khalid Basalamah ~ covid era CSIS Business / System Analyst - black youtuber (forgot) ~ before covid era - udacity business analytics ~ covid era - udacity business analyst ~ covid era Blockchain - MIT 15....
i imagine myself, goes traveling through all indonesia. selfies. this why i prefer cities human-made more than natures god-made nature is something perfect, but there is something progress in human made. i hate genius/priviledged for they lack of beauty of effort. something that makes it beautiful is the effort “back to nature” as we should climb to mountain or beach, but actually we can always go back in nature, to go true deep of ourselves, to go around city, to talk with friends, to see movies, or to go through neighborhood....
Lets be honest. first option: being a marbot masjid. do you really believe that people you could fold the fabric of reality? by making people believe on what you said, on what you doctrine? to speak in front of people, you should do this or do that. you should pray to god and so on, do you really want to tell people to do something? i believe you dont. you see your friends....
I despise the patter of raindrops' dance, Loathe the thunderous beats of music's trance. The fleeting TikTok whispers, brief and sly, Assault my senses, make me wonder why. A cacophony of keys, a tip-toeing storm, Noisy symphony, my patience they deform. In this realm of sound, I find no peace, Averse to every note, my solace seeks release. How do I shroud my ears, escape this din, A sensitivity to sound, my Achilles' skin?...
Love is akin to a proving method in mathematics, and I absolutely detest proving methods. Why can’t it simply be intuitive speculation? Why do we need to prove? Why can’t we perceive the myriad forms of love? Being ignored constitutes a form of love. A mother’s anger is a form of affection. Tsunamis and earthquakes signify their love to unite with their victims. Hatred is one of the expressions of love....