I would really like to kill myself, but I’m just too afraid to do that. I’m a coward, like the great coward. I try to look back what did I do wrong. How can I born into this world. I really want to know what kind of effort that I did in order to reach the ovarium. I’m just a random sperm. I always convince myself that I should enjoy, or even if I can’t enjoy, just please feel the sadness and absorb all the mixed feeling about how I’d really like when want to kill myself....
A few little things are affecting me. I missed Zuhr prayer due to an irrational thought process. I’m atheist, I scream to myself. But that scream is usually just a lie. There’s always a burden feeling when I miss my prayer. My sleep schedule is messed up. In Depok, it’s always hot, and I can’t sleep early. Sometimes I listen to random YouTube videos, audiobooks, or Al-Mathurat, but it doesn’t work well for me....
sebelum terjun ke dunia perjudian, coba tonton dulu anime kakegurui biasanya yg jadi zombie itu gara2 ingin menang/kaya instan, tapi kalo diniatkan secara sadar buat cari adrenalin mirip main roller koster, ke rumah hantu, atau gacha game insyaallah ga akan terlalu gila. kalo gamau jadi wibu, coba baca2 referensi gerakan anarko libtard, khususnya kripto blockchain. ubah niat utama antum jadi sedekah ke developer yg susah2 kuliah belajar stat prob & softeng ujungnya malah jadi dev game slot, atau cari token2 kripto yg use case utamanya smart contract buat betting/judi macam chainlink dll....
If someone automates Instagram to like every account they follow, reply, and comment based on the context of the picture you post, you will find some sort of excitement if that someone is who you like, and otherwise if you don’t like. Humans can be easily fooled because of the feature of ‘feeling.’ Humans are not multitaskers, but with computers, they can be. Computers resemble the Jutsu of a thousand shadows from Naruto....
Fuck I need a platform to bury my dreams. It’s such a shame that people don’t announce their dead dreams. The thing is, we don’t know what kind of creature a dream is. Most people see a dream as a lifeless thing, and when it dies, it’s considered to have no value anymore. But I see a dream as a living entity; it can be like a human or like a fruit....
Many LDK/rohis campus or organization in general seem to not be contributing much to the nation, or even to the university, or their respective departments/majors. @fukifasilkom @gamaisitb @mt_binus etc They tend to provide unurgent seminars, lack research tailored to the needs of their members, and make little effort to help all members reach their potential. Most of what they do is conduct seminars that are mostly unhelpful, especially in areas where they lack deep knowledge of their religion....
unfinished minecraft is beautiful fractalian sometimes underapreciate human made, considers all the math geometric is not nature like. dont trust someone say ohh we should hargai jasa guru. cara menghargai jasa guru adalah mengalahkannya dan membuatnya menjadi usang those who complaints someone being arrogant are those who has inferiority complex. do you think the sun is arrogant for shed a light too much uv particle in after morning to any createture on earth, except those escape who hide themselves that prevent lights and stay in the darkness?...
“never participate in reciprocal gratitude, make people question everything and make them never feel enough. the dalil is fastabiqul khairat” some media frame that is how the bomb terrorist school of thought, simplification, misinterpret, and whatnot. they said a simple claim with high variance could model the bigger picture. having sense a big objectivity, they turn some pictures and words to become their profit. anyone cant blame them because they want to be the top media companies, their employee need works to provide their kids at home....
I’ve come to understand concepts like the ‘spotlight effect,’ delved into the intriguing depths of ‘The Mind Explained’ Netflix series, and engaged with content that reminds us of our shared humanity in this vast world. The phrase “kullu nafsin daikotul maut” resonates, reminding us that every soul will face mortality. Then there’s YOLO, the philosophy of seizing the day, and the notion of entropy and complexity, which rise with the passage of time....
God created all beautiful scenery. What is the purpose of beauty? And it is never enough. It is like the Alif Lam Mim and the likes Ayat. Or it is like the ‘yeee hawww’ from the Jackass. It indicates that it’s not the rational that leads, but the irrational, the redundant, the ineffective. That is the fallacy where they see others similar to them, so they feel like they are replaceable, unimportant, and useless....